I’ve done a lot of soul searching the past few months. Everyone says “Tell your story”. Tell people where you came from and all about your path to success. I didn’t think I had a story. I’ve never really “failed my way to success”. Things have always come natural to me.
When I was in school, I would sit in class, rarely take notes, NEVER do homework and pass every single test with at least a 90% or above. Most times 100%. People always envied me. Even in college. I would take classes in the morning in Accounting and tutor other students that same afternoon on what I learned that morning.
I’m smart, damnit!!
I grew up on a working dairy farm and know what hard work is. 4:30 every morning and 4:30 every afternoon the cows had to be milked. Our barn was the cleanest I’ve ever seen because we didn’t wait until it was horrendous to clean it. It was cleaned on a daily basis. I worked in the fields picking rocks and harvesting crops and emptying hay wagons and staking hay in the barn. I think I was the only girl I know that could throw a hay bale around just as well as the boys.
So why? Why are all of these other people who started working from home long after I did successful today and I’m still making just enough. Just enough to cover the rent and just enough to get by? Sure…our NEEDS are always taken care of. But there isn’t much left over after the needs and a few minimal wants to do much else.
I can teach anyone to be successful online. It’s satisfying, yet frustrating to see those I’ve coached finally having success. If I can teach others to be successful, why am I still sitting at “just enough”?
There are two things that came to mind when I reflected on this.
My kids grew up hearing me say “Don’t worry…God always makes sure we have what we need.” HOLY CRAP!!! That’s what I’ve always said and always told myself. But…God doesn’t promise just needs will be taken care of. He promises ABUNDANCE!! (If you don’t believe in God, that’s OK. You don’t have to. Replace God with Universe or whatever higher power YOU believe in) He promises abundance, but all I’ve ever expected or asked for is “just enough”.
That changes TODAY!! I am asking for AND EXPECTING abundance!! I am asking for and expecting that I always have more than I need and want!
Growing up, my dad died when I was 7. My mother remarried shortly after that. My step father was a perfectionist. Everything had to be done the right way. He always said “If you’re not going to do it right, don’t do it at all” So…that’s how I’ve lived my life. I only did things I knew I would succeed at. I never step out of my comfort zone.
Here’s one example… If I’m teaching something, I do it by audio or screencast. I am RARELY on camera. I’ve gotten way overweight the past few years and recently had my teeth pulled so I wasn’t comfortable on camera. And, of course, working from home, I tend to not worry about things like dying my gray hair and putting on makeup, etc… That is going to change this coming Thursday. My good friend, Kim Klaver, has challenged me to share LIVE on a google hangout this week. It’s a private team hangout, but will be seen by quite a few people, so this first step is huge for me. I’m doing it!! Jumping in with both feet.
So…my lessons from today…in order for ME to be successful I need to:
1. Ask for, and expect, what I really want, not just enough to get by. What we focus on expands. If I focus on always having my needs covered, that’s where I will stay. My focus from this point forward will be on having MORE than what I want and need. The universe is abundant!! I deserve success!!
2. Step out of my comfort zone and be willing to risk failure. I don’t always have to be the best at what I do and I don’t always have to succeed. Sometimes it’s a good thing to not do it perfect the first time. That’s how we learn!